tell it like it is.

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 04:47:38 GMT

I love Barbie and Samm.

forever&ever&ever.

lame.

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 00:40:29 GMT

lame. lame. lame.

Today was half good half bad.

Boys.. yeah. THEY SUCK. they're confusing and dramatic and I HATE being caught in the middle. But, it's not JUST them. Its the confusing girls that get caught up in the mess too. rbkhdfngkjvefd. WHO CARES WHO YOU TALK TO!?! IT SHOULDNT MATTER. This is seriously the stupidest thing ever. I DONT CARE WHO YOU TALK TO BECAUSE ITS YOUR CHOICE. UGHHH rfehbdskjgnfvkjesdnmgfvjrnfdsgkjvfd. This is HIGHSCHOOL, you talk to who you want to, imma talk to who I want to. Why should that matter, seriously!?! Someone, PLEASE tell me because i'm fucking confused.

Ughh, make me some pancakes, then get on your knees.

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 21:20:53 GMT

ooookaaay. so it's been like a month since i've been on this thaaang. weeell, yesterday was AMAZING. cept for somethingsss. but whatev, my businesss. but right now im with barbie and we're abt to visit samm cause its her birthday and we baked her cupcakes cause we're amazinggg. =]]] tonight, the social, i cant waittt, it should be excitinggg. i wish this kid could go buuttt oh wellll. <333

peeace :)

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 21:20:51 GMT

This year, is gonna be a good year.

Today was so good.
g jrkdfbgkvref dsjgvf.

like at first i just sat in homeroom for like an hour but its okay because i have homeroom with kellie. then my schedule got fucked up like 80% of the school and i ended up in the auditorium for like 2 hours until it was 2nd block. lunch was fdgjtejds amaaazingg. pretty much everyone has my lunch. katrina, bobby, tyler, kellie, and everyone else that matters :D i dont know who i have for 1st block until tomorrow or maybe mondayyy. other then that im good.

I like all my teachers, and one of them doesnt even believe in homework. mmm. i was so happy to see everyoneee. i dont think i stopped smiling all day. i was greattt. and i have a class with alicia and kyla and dave and dfbsgkl;jvefndsjl thats gonna be the best class everrr. some cuties this year too ;D

after school mom picked me up, we got our eyebrows done and got chinese.

anddd, im gonna play halo the rest of the day.

<3

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 15:45:42 GMT

daang, i haven't updated in a week. i'm getting lazy with this thing again. hmm, lets see whats been going onn.

well, for the past 3 days i was in winter haven and hungout in a hotelll, but yesterday i went to cypress gardens, it kinda sucks but its fun to layout i got really taan =D

school starts tomorrow. at first i was dreading it but now i cant wait. i miss everyone, i havent seen pretty much anyone that goes to my school all summer and thinking on it, it kinda sucks. i wish i could redo the summer.

im not complaining though, i had alot of fun and i have the best friends ever, i just wish i could've balanced who i hungout with instead of hanging out with the same people everyday. no offense though, i love you guys.

hopefully this year is different, i've been looking forward to it. not being so shy, more outgoing, meeting more people, getting involed in clubs and stuff. yeah, we'll see i guess.

ill update after school tomorrow. peace.

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 03:22:48 GMT

Mhmmmm, So yesterday was dbfzgbgjxgjf so much funn. Ryan came over with Tash and we went to my moms jobbb. I was kinda trying to suprise her but she ended up not being there but whatevv. We just went to westoaks and saw john tucker must die. It was kinda gay but it was pretty funny too I guesss. After we went to Spees for a little, dropped Tash off and went homee.

Then today. Wow. I went school shopping and it was like fdjlbngfdj I can't even explainn. I went to like Abercrombie, Hollister, AE, Victoria's Secrettt, and MAC. I literally spent like 500 dollars at every store. Mmmmm.

Tomorrow I wanna go to the show but idk how i'll get there so yeah. Idk.

I'm still kinda pissed abt what happened though. I miss my best friend, but whateverr. Nothing I can do about it =/.

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 05:22:30 GMT

I fucking hate people. And drama. Fuck you. I love how people make up fucked up shit abt me. Thanks! You really really suck. I hope you fucking accomplised something by lying though, I hope you feel really good about yourself. And I hope you can sleep at night.

Fuck yoou.

But, the show was good. Too bad people manage to ruin my good fucking night. Spencer likes to make me feel better, at least I know I have one good friend.
That's basically all I need, everyone else can go fuck themself, thanks.

But i'm hanging out with Ryan Doyon and Natashia tomorrow and maybe David so hopefully my day will be good tomorrow.

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 16:16:54 GMT

So, last night I got home and was bored home alone so Jbelle came overrr with Barbie. Then Britt came overr. It was pretty much really fun. A night full of dancing and eating &girltalk. =] Today i'm not really sure what i'm doing. My mom's saying shes taking me school shopping but idk.

TOMORROW; MAYLENE &AS CITIES BURN =]]]]fdskughvefjdsngfv IM SO EXCITED.

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 06:29:31 GMT

mmmm, heey. Okayy welll, lately i've been really busy. Thursday I went to Blizzard Beach and it was pretty dang fun except for the fact it rainedd =[[. But oh weeelll. After that Brit took me to Spees house and we just hungout and Sara and this other girl came over and then Brittany and Barbie came over and we just hunggg. Then I went home, was on the phone with David from like 12 - 6am, played Halo and thats abt it. Theeeen, today I got up at like 2, cleaned and the went to speeesss. We went to Citywalk and saw Clerks. Holy fuck that movie is seriously like way hilarious. Then me Spee and Ryan M went out to eat at Hard Rock and it was really good. After Citywalk I went to Em&stef's and thats where i'm at now and it's really fun =]]]. Peace.

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 15:29:22 GMT

ME AND BRITTANY BACARDIII ARE GOING TO BLIZZARD BEACH.
I'll update when I get home =]]]

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 17:29:04 GMT

Like I said; "leave your baggage at the back door."
Where I'm leaving you the way I think it should be.
We're always pulling into spaces (that we can't back out of)
Starting fights.
We cant talk our way out of this
(talk our way out of this)
Talk our way out of this.

How does it feel to be on the receiving end of this one?
Of this one?

I'm half way there,
(and its all on me)
This is what I get for wanting more,
For wanting more.

This is the way its got to be.
Dancing on all these changes
So I walk around with this rope in my hand
(rope in my hand)
So I'll tie it around, and around and around.
I'll tie me down.

I'll fantisize of being manic and leaving us behind.
In your eyes, you were the one that tried.

Acceptance is what holds us here
Then you my dear are the one I fear tonight.
We'll try this one more time.

This is the moment that we all live for.
Are you ready?
Are you ready?

I'm half way there,
(and its all on me)
This is what I get for wanting more,
For wanting more.

This is the way its got to be.
Dancing on all these changes
So I walk around with this rope in my hand
(rope in my hand)
So I'll tie it around, and around and around.
I'll tie me down.

You cant see past my waving hands.
(just running away again)
You cant see past my waving hands.
(good-bye)

(it gets so loud it hurts my ears.)

I wanna know how to get through this
(how to get through this)
Without choking up.
I wanna know how to get through this
(how to get through this)
Without choking up.
I cant feel you,
You're so far from me.

This is what I get for wanting more
This is what I get for wanting more
(and its all on me)
This is what I get for wanting more
This is what I get for wanting more
(and its all on me)
This is what I get for wanting more
This is what I get for wanting more
(and its all on me)
If you're a good friend of mine, you'll know why these lyrics are on here. They're perfect.

Anyways, today should be really funnn. =]. I'm going to Spee's and then Brittany Bacardiii is gonna come pick us up and we're going to West Oaks with a bunch of other amazing kids and especially David <3. I'm so exciteeedd. Buttt for now I have to clean so i'll update when I get home. <3

Updaaate; 11:30.
Okaaay, so I went to the mall and all. Showed up at Spencers house and then Brittany came and got us and we all just hung out at the mall until David got there. Afterrr, we went to go figure out what movie we wanted to seee. We ended up seeing 'You Me &Dupree', it was a pretty cute/funny movieee. I liked it =]. So yeah I was with Gian, David, Spencer cause Britt left and yeahhhh. After we went to Spencers and I owned him at Halo. =] But cheaaa. Now i'm at Britt's and tomorrow I think we're going to Blizzard Beach?!

Blaaah, i'm really confused about some things though. Bad things being said, drama, it sucks and I hate it. I'm not wasting my breath trying to convice someone that I didn't say something. In the end I know I didn't say anything and i'm gonna be the bigger person and not fight about it. I could care less if you believe me or not, whatever. And with other stuff, I hate people that try and convice me that someones bad. I'll be the judge of that myself, thanks. Please, forget my name and pretend you never knew me. Drama, always catches up to me and I try to avoid it. Waste your time on someone/something else.

Suckss.

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 18:30:59 GMT

Now i'm holding my face in the pavement,
Scratching away for any trace
of affection you will leave,
falling victim to the public's prey.
Well, I won't hold on, no I can't hold on, I won't hold on to this.
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out in my bed for 6 long months.

Today is gonna be a laaame day =[
A lazy day of sitting around and listening to acoustic songs &playing Halo for Brito. Maybe some crying. Blah.
I'm still not over it, it feels like I lost my bestfriend. At least it wasn't like, 9 months down the road though.
I don't look at it as regret though, I look at it as learning from your mistakes.
Don't go for something or someone unless you really truely want it, and they want you back,
that way you can't say you regret it, because you once wanted it so badly.
I wanted to get over it sooner, but I guess things don't always happen like that.

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Editinggg; @10:45.
Okay so today was pretty lame just like I thought it would be. I woke up at like 130pm and played Halo and listened to acoustic music and cried and talked on the phone a bit with David, Zac, and Spencer. They're pretty much the only people I talk to anymore. On the phone anyways. Then I went riding 4-wheelers and my brother found like 20 bucks on the yard so we went to Taco Bell and CVS and blew it, haha. Tomorrow should be really fun though if everything works outtt. I can't wait to see David =]]]. And Lizzie and everyoneee. <333

Todayyy.

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 00:53:01 GMT

Alex thinks it's funny to mess with me while im typing and take my signed ticket. <3 haha. Okay but today I pretty much woke up, ate and took a shower and then Mario, Emily, Spencer, and Alex came overrr. We hung out for like a few mins then James and Britni showed up and they had practiceee. Soon we're just gonna play Halo and chillll. Thats pretty much it though. I finally talked to Dal and it didn't seem like he had too much to say to me and it sucks because I really miss him alot and it doesn't even seem like he cares. And Alex knows Dallas Taylor. Alex is the coolest because he rides my barbie bikes. Ahahhaha. And he thinks it's funny to write head.

Okay; Editing @9:00pm.
Alright so I talked to Dallas and we just ended up breaking it off. I thought it would make me feel better but I actually feel worse. I guess it was something we couldn't fix =/. He says I was being clingy, but you should want to talk to your boyfriend or girlfriend, right? You shouldn't feel obligated to and it shouldn't feel like 'OH GOD I GOTTA CALL/TEXT THAT BITCH'. Yeah, maybe I was just trying to make something work that wasn't supposed to work, and I was trying to avoid the fact that it wasn't working the best I could? I guess everything happens for a reason. I guess we can just be friends.

Too bad it still sucks =/.

Yesterday &Today.

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 03:43:50 GMT

Alright well i'm gonna start with yesterday. It was actually really fun, I was suprised. I was supposed to go to a party but I felt really bad because I didn't even know the kid. Barbie came and picked me up and then we headed over there and pretty much anyone cool ever was there =]. Jbelle, Ash, Bentley, Panda, James, Mario, Ems, Alex, Stef, Kristen.. yeah you get the pointtt. Then afterwards Ems took us to my house and we had a mass sleepover there. Panda, Mario, Alex, Stef, Ems, Jbelle, Ash, &Bentley stayed overrr. And that pretty much wraps up yesterdayy. Then today I didn't really do anything, just woke up and everyone left and I just played Halo, talked to Spee and ate Chinese. =] I started talking to this kid David too, i've known him for awhile but just recently started talking to himmm, hes pretty amazing =]. Today also kinda sucked thoughhh. I really miss Dal and it sucks really bad because I haven't heared from him in like 3 days even though I texted him =/ blehh.

OMGOMGOMG 8 DAYS TILL MAYLENE/AS CITIES IM SO EXCITEDDD <333 =]]]